2021 Reflection & New Beginnings
I've been in hermit mode for most of this year. Recently I was looking back at my old videos and reminiscing about pre-covid times.I realise the importance of documenting and I love sharing things from my perspective.
Lockdown gave me time to appreciate the little things in my life and I could focus on what made me feel good and it would be little things such as a good meal or Saturday night zooms which were a reason to get dressed from the waist up.
Even though lockdown has been lifted for a couple of months now, I don't feel like life is back to normal just yet because unfortunately covid is still here. There is so much uncertainty as to what you can and can't do.
The last time that we spoke was back in May when I said goodbye to my old nickname and I was in counselling for a couple of weeks.
I think therapy can be quite glamourised in the media but I tell you that there is nothing glamorous about it. Doing inner healing work and reflecting on yourself is hard.
I don't understand why going to therapy isn't celebrated as a milestone. There's a celebration for birthdays, buying a house, having a baby or getting married but sorting out your own mind for your own benefit and happiness isn't.
After the counselling sessions had stopped I was learning things about my personality and acknowledging traits that I've never really looked at before. I have a all or nothing mentality with my creativity. I'm either a hyper jelly bean who creates lots of things and i'll work all around the clock at something or I can't function and there is no in between. I feel like i'm a depressed sloth and I can't do anything when I don't feel inspired because if I'm not feeling it then everyone can see clearly that i'm not feeling it. I don't have a filter.
Creativity is something i've struggled with this year however I've find it through a different format which is TikTok.
I love TikTok and it suits my style so much better which is quick and straight to the point. I'm proud of my TikTok videos and I try to post daily. I’m doing so much better on there and it just goes to show that you should put your content out there no matter what it is because you never know what might happen.
This quiet time has been very much needed and I'm looking forward to being back in my little space of the internet. Looking forward to the adventures in 2022.
See you soon!